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Thursday, May 25, 2006

i haven been blogging for some time already...i was actually bz with some shit...well the sem 5 are having their exams now...

evenlyn, my senior. she came up to mi in lib and was like..
"im going to my death now!....if i dun come back...you know where i am!"

haha..

funny girl!...

she is really nice...she's actually the sports rep for SRC aka Student Representative Council... its quite a big shot kinda a thing...its like everybody knows you but you dun rem much people...but the good thing about her...she makes an effort to know every single one of us...that's why people adore her.!

haha..

ma exams will be soon too..

i have to buck up....apparently ma memorising ability seem to fail me recently...i cant seem to get anything into my stupid small brain...have to try much much harder..

plus i haven gotten the time or rather gotten the GUTS to enter the MMS ( Medical Museum S-dunno wad! haha)...
cuz i wanna go prepared....but im not at all prepared...

shit..

well...i just i better chill..

relax man!
haha...

X men 3 is out too!...i so wanna watch it!...

i was supposed to watch the midnight movie yesterday one..but ma frens were too tired...so we cancelled it...hopefully we can watch by this week
okok..

im going back to study..

BASSYA!

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

its a real pity that ma mei ling and Eling did not make it into the finals of the Chinese singing comp. i mean they were pretty good ...and seriously the rest of the contestants were like shit.

plus there was this other group that sang some Jay Chou song by the pharmacy students. they were so delightfully good.. but apparently they were not good enough for the judges!...the JUDGES MUST BE deaf man!..

its not fair..

anw the finals is tonight...i dun think i wanna go watch...

all the contestants are like erm.....yesh Shit..*again* haha..

but i think maybe ill drop by...cuz some of ma other coursemates are conpeting haha..

good luck to all!

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I just finished my first patient interview. My god i was nervous man...come to think of it..i never knew it was so difficult to like 'talk' to another person.

This is actually part of the communication stupid skills we have to learn la...studying about the Behaviour Science which is Totally Bull Shit!

One part of this BS is to learn to create rapport with the patients..my stimulated patient was quite nice but she was rather strict too. Plus i was penalised for using too much jargon but the thing was that the patient used the word abdominal pain first wad...so naturally i would use that word when i ask her..but ma tutor screwed me...saying he will only look at wad I SAY and not what the patient mentions. so ya...

later ill be having another interview...this time i better not screw up man..

and shit i saw ma uncle in school yesterday...and shit again! she screwed me MORE!..

i was like hanging around the CSU which mean Clinical Skills Unit after the interview...then HE SPOTTED ME 'wasting me time---the kind of phrase he would use on me"

with his eyes scrutinizing every inch of me....*shit again!*
he then started to talk to me in burmese....*DOUBLE SHIT* --how the hell would i bloody understand!!

stupidly and clumsily i obviously had to BLURT something out!
so i was like "good good! (in burmese la)"

then he looked at me again...
and replied in burmese again * thazin bangs her head*
"no good no good"

i was like relentlessly repeating the only burmese i know..
"good good!!'
and he perpetually repeated the opposite.

so finally i ask asked him...

'why you say no good'

and he went on saying that i spent to much of ma time wasting it!
and that i shouldnt join any cca...
cuz he kinda found out tt i joined tennis...
but i kinda quit after one time...haha...

well...
i never told him that i joined adventure club...
oops..

i better make it man!!...if not..
im

dead!

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

the X games are in town man....at sunway...but its like im in seremban and its in kl man.
and the thing is that i just quarrelled with ma fren..and he is the one with this invention called "CAR" so ya......
i dun wanna ask him to go see the games with me! HMMP!...
i know im petty...but until he knows how to appreciate me......
then ill tok to him again...

to think abt it arh...wah!!! infuriating man!!!.....*ROAR*

currently im staying over at Pui kuan's house in seremban. Kept eating non stop....i mean her family seriously love eating man!!! haha....with is a GREAT HOBBY!...
totally love it....

school's starting tml again...shit....ma life is going suck more.....
the fact that ive moved to BLock A2 is not helping at all man!....so bloody far from ma school...NVM....FIGHTING !!!!!......Fighting!! ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Friday, May 12, 2006

my god...

for the 1st time in my life was i ever so so so very angry! i was furious.
i mean like how can raymond just pull the plug on me like tt! its just not fair..

well....yesterday was adventure club first outing, we were supposed to go to Gasing Hill for a night jungle trek. Not many ppl were going already so i was banking on the help from ma frens to AT LEAST come....

Venesy was sick...so i was cool like i told her she could give it a miss...but raymond......he just like 1 hour b4 the gathering time of 730pm...he msged me at 630 asking me if he could NOT go for the trek!....

i was tired and was depressed i was stressed because my results from my exam that wasnt as good as everyone...plus i was moving and cleaning my new apartment and this is the shit he comes and tell me..

f**k...
and you know wad was the ridiculous excuse he gave...
"its raining abit (which was INSIGNIFICANT drops of water) i will get sick one....and i really dun feel like goin"

is this even VALID!???!?!?!?

its tough being their president when your own COMM members dun keep their promise.....in addition to that irresponsible act....he ACTUALLY AGREED AND PROMISED long long time ago, when we were PLANNING for this trek that he will definitely go ......i even reconfirmed with him earlier in the day if he was COMING!....he said yes....and this is the kind of fuck i get...

and they say they are my frens...

frens look out for one another...frens dun ditch frens........and i was counting so much on him....my god.

i really hated him tt day...
so much so...i really wanted to KILL HIM!
*not really la..haha*

and they sometimes can really get on my nerves....everyday..."wennie wennie wennie..." the other one will be like 'ten ni ten ni ten ni" arh KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they only display their care and concern to the girls they are interested and not to their frens... im sick and tired of listening to their stupid shit about how pretty and sweet and kind and caring and sexy and hot and smart and ....................arh!!!!!...

i TIRED!!! enough is ENOUGH!!!!
no moRE!!!!....

you want a girl....go do it someplace else....

every single day......day in day out....i hear this shit...

i mean i tot i could ignore it....like when they say...'oh so and so is so pretty' i tot i could like 'yeah she really is pretty'

i mean i will continue that way ....
but yesterday ....that was the LAST STRAW!!!....

then last nite after the trek....
i went back quite late like 1 am like tt...cuz after the trek ma frens and i went to AnW to eat supper

CS msged me...asking me to forgive ray....
he said ray has some problems that nite...tt's why he did not want to go trekking. he mentioned that AS HIS fren....i should UNDERSTAND his plight.....but....how can i understand his situation when i know nothing of it...ray nv mentioned this to me......he did not even give me a valid reason....
and you know what.....my another fren told me.......that that very nite.....those 2 bastards went shopping at utama..

MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how can i believe in their bullshit...
anymore

how???

tell me how?????

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

-deviantart
2 lives can interweave itself to form something of a whole new platform.

The life of a pretty girl:

Everybody loves her...she is beautiful, young, free, smart, demure really sweet...super kind...nice body ...i mean...life as a pretty girl is pretty good..

you get privileges. People adore you.

they get more frens. they smile more radiant. and guys line up just to be with them

but where there light.....there will always be dark

The life of an ugly girl:

nobody goes near her.
she gets ignored

no privileges...cuz no one knows her existence....
no guys line up..

there may not even be one.

she is the kind that will sit around in her room dreaming of her cinderalla story.

but in actual fact, things dont happen like that.

therefore,

the distinction will always be there.

there will never be sure a thing as a Cinderalla Story....................................................................unless you are a pretty girl...............................its a cruel world out there......

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Honestly speaking, im living in a bubble.

for those who din know..i actually came back home last weekend. but now im back again in this bubble.

For some reason when im anticipating the day i go home the feeling is not as great as ive expected.

i mean like. when i lie on my lousy bed to sleep every night over here i keep dreaming to wanting to lie on my bed in Singapore. But when i really go back and sleep on ma real bed something just feels................odd.....

i dunno...

and my room looks......different...and my whole apartment just looks erm..........smaller?

but after a while....i guess you body and mind starts to tune back to what was like before i left it...so it was pretty cool..

but i stayed in singapore for too short a period. plus i had to study while at it man..it sucked! i coullnt really enjoy the stay fully...and MAN!!singapore is sooO hot...! haha...but hey...kl is hotter!!...

but i tell you what.................

thazin is the HOTTEST man!!....give it up for ME!!!!!

*thank you thank YOu*

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