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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

my visa is finally approved. this means that the time for me to go away will be drawing near.

I cannot believe im doing this now. As in i never expected myself to leave my haven. 2.5 years ago, i left too reluctantly, but the fact that i din know what to expect there made things easier. Now that i can truly comprehend the apprehension the loneliness and emptiness and the people you love that you have to leave behind when you leave home.
It sucks to experience this all over again.

united kingdom was never my choice to travel to. i mean im mostly the aussie girl. ie. going down under, beach, sun, sand and sea and laid back ozzie accent. Not the gloomy uptight, freezing cold uk. haha..

i guess life always have their mysteries no matter how hard you plan your life.

i have about one more month left in sg. I dunno if im wasting time here or im making full use of the time. But i can say, i honestly feel at bliss now. Away from the stress, the workload and everything unpleasant. lol.

what can i say, i like to be in my comfort zone. but being out of it just makes you a stronger person. just pray hard you survive it. haha. oh well.

I hope this will be a pleasant 1 more month for me.. haha maybe something magical can happen ..for eg.. finding my prince! whHAhahha...come on.. im running out of time already. and im getting no younger. After this summer break. its time for hard core biz already. no time for fun laughters peace and love! so i gotta buck up and spend every single min to da max.

speaking of which.. i watched an entire anime finish today.. -.- ( talk bt spending quality time)

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Sunday, August 10, 2008

its a monday. issit?
right its is a monday. haha.. many days have passed since leaving imu. Life is getting better and better i must say. sitting at home. sweating under the hot sun as the sun rays penetrate my curtains and windows to my desk. ( which is really pathetic. cuz my mom threw away my old study desk. now its just some ah pek coffee table desk. )

in the morning i met up with bee hui for mac breakfast at singpost. had a nice meal! haha.. then sat down and chatted for a long time. but she had to leave early to meet her fren in city hall.

so now im back home. singing to the jason mraz "im yours" again and again. i have to admit ..it is one god damn good song. haha.. a very summer song. haha.. laid back and relaxing.

maybe im gonna continue to read my harry potter.. cuz i haven got the chance to read book 6. so im taking this opportunity to read...

acutally thank god the NUS elective did not pull thru. otherwise i dun think i have the time and leisure to enjoy my time back home. haha

but damn.. they took my 6 bucks and did not return me. stupid. geesh

anws.. later ill be meeting my pri school fren later at night. so i guess its something i can look forward tonight. hmm

tml will oso be another slacky day.

wow.. i love my life. haha

i love it love it love it.

other than my room. its a total mess..total mess...:) oh well. it has me written all over.
come on.. wad's thazin without a mess!

i pity whoever is gonna marry me or roommates.. be very scared.

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Monday, August 04, 2008

And again,
today is a special day too.
its the birthday of my very good fren who is no longer here to celebrate

xianliang, happy 22th birthday.

Thank you so much for everything. You have always been part of my life. And i will always think of you. I hope the heavens are nice for you.. but if you ever do get bored, just come down to earth and have some fun alright!

we all miss you here.

you will always have a special place in our hearts.

i miss you and love you.

hugs,
thazin

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i have to say, life back home isnt bad at all.. just that maybe im not used to everything again.. like my room. its has changed 360 degrees

anw.. i do miss my life back in kl. all my frens. yesterday, i was reading the letters i got for the farewell when i departed kl to sg. it really touched me. and for once, i let myself cry. i mean usu im the type that dun cries.. i tend to move along and get to the next level.. maybe that's why saying goodbye by seem emotionless to me. but actually deep down, im just falling apart. but the defense mechanism just makes you harden.

i miss you guys the pents house girls which includes sumi bush shaz roch nabila and arthi ( which ill be spending the next 3 years of my life with)

I miss my dear housemates too lydia and brendan..
and of cuz the psedo crib and penthsemate shin ann!

haha.
and how can i forget the machas.. who have been my frens for so long and helped my survive in imu for so long. i miss you guys.. your laughters.. the lame jokes. the fooling ard.. and the clubbing moments.

everyone and anyone i know in imu and make my life seem so complete there. the hardships we been thru, the joy we laughed together. the international club meetings which i always seem to forget to attend.. haha..

life is gonna be tough without you guys.

but i promise ill work hard from now on.. so that i can be a really good doctor that you guys can be proud of.. and the same goes to all of you.!

i miss you so much so so very much.!

its has been my pleasure and honour to share part of my life story with all of you.

hugs and kisses.
thazin ( big T)

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