Saturday, December 30, 2006
so this is the new year eve. here i am sitting in a corner of the lib's computer lab using the computer. watching the people studying as if they really enjoyed it. I dont know what i should do on this day. no one is here in vista. Nikram is locked up in his home. Raymond is in Ipoh. Vanessa in Ipoh. Alisha at Home. im away from my home.. myintzu is in the zoo at this moment with her climbing frens watching Thai elephants doing stunts. Here i am again, listening to some sappy sad song."WHAT HURTS THE MOST!!!" ..
initially, i was thinking of going down to Times square to border to read books and use the internet, but im just so freaking lazy to go all the way down. so im here in the lib TRYING hard to study. but i guess not, since im actually playing with the computer instead.! haha.
im quite hungry though. i dunno what to eat later too. the canteens are not open either. cook? spaget? hmm.? wad a boring boring boring thing to do on new year eve. maybe i should buy a little wine later? have a small sip and enjoy the wonderful night? but then...the nearest 7-11 is so god damn freaking far!...
man..
i need to get a car!
never mind.
anw..i absolutely love ERAGON!.lol..after watching that movie. i suddenly realise that i need to start working on my book already which i have kept dormant for so long already.
so this 2007 is going to be an amazing year. im going to be a changed person! im 20! im Still young! i should be doing things i love and not worry about a thing in a world. im going to do all sorts of FUN STUFFS!! im going to go jump a cliff.go fall down a waterfall..aiyah..you get what i mean and the best thing is that...i promise..im going to stop stop stop drooling at guys that i cant get..so no more man!..no more! woohoo!..young independent women...im going to kick ass the NEW YEAR!!!
HAPPY NEW YEARS PEEPZ>.
best wishes and may all your dreams come true because dream do come true if your keep believing!!!!!!!!!!!
thazin
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
this is a story of a girl finding her way in life.
it all began on the first night of the full moon. She closed her eyes and asked to the goddess and earth if she was choosing the right path. Many times she had tried to do what other people did. Many times she lost her soul. And many times she cried at night wondering whatever happened to her.
that night, she comtemplated her errors. To her, everyone was selfish, arrogant, evil and hypocritical. They all looked like angels trying to help her but actually they were stabbing her and hoping for her to bleed out and die. She was in this battle all alone. Day by day, her armour is being torn apart by the slow truths that she digs out along the way. She is losing her mind, soul and heart.
Seeking help to the moon goddess, Serena. She bared herself in hope of getting comfort and to be healed in the wounds she inflicted in her fight.
She knows Serena would not come forward to her. She knows she was losing. Yet she asked for help. Maybe all these was in her mind, she has been too lonely these past few years. Depression was her companion. Fear was always behind her. And the truth kept stabbing her.
"freedom" she asked.
"let me go" she begged.
"I will not let you go", the moon whispered in her mind, " you will stay and fight till you emerge a stronger women"
She was shocked. Was she hallucinating?
fight? how do i fight still? when im falling apart? give me a sign, a hint, anything!?
the goddess spoke no more.
she was not granted freedom, but she was instead granted strength to be strong again. She will not run away from the truth and she will not fall again. She will stand tall and be strong because she is all alone and she cannot afford to crack. She will be a warrior.
she closed her eyes alone.
"alone i will be, but strong i shall become"
she smiled and walked back into her life.
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
so there was this all american rejects group.
friday night is coming this coming friday..duh. nikram and raymond and the juniors will be involved in Mario performance. Mervin, one of the juniors has excellant leadership skills in leading the entire play. i really admire him for that man!. i have other plans this coming friday. hmm... im so sick of this stupid god forsaken place of medicine. every freaking day is like studying. arh.! i need a holiday break. christmas is coming man..give this girl her CHRISTMAS!.
this friday i will be also going down to cheras community clinic for my CVS. my other fren group got so lucky cuz they got a doctor who was SO SO willing to teach them EVERYTHING! i mean like SUTURES TOO! . man oh man..i so wish the doc we get is just as cool man.. if not im going to make the whole visit worth wide. im going to talk to ALL the patients..try out ALL the funny medical thingy...and make FULL use to learn everything that i can learn in the clinic.
and oh yeah..today i played fustal. man..its super different from climbing! and im so addicted to it already man!. haha..
one day man one day!
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