Sunday, November 05, 2006
Sitting in one corner of StarBucks, Borders and sipping my caramel frappuccino i realised that here in starbucks, it aint that bad to study alone. One thing so indifferent from the starbucks in singapore is the smell of coffee brewing. I have been here for over 2 hours already. Read finish my Medically Important Parasites notes. next moving on to transmission. I cant help but feel so at home.
I have decided to make this my weekly routine. Every sunday, ill bring my books, take the train and walk to time sqaure for a moment of peace away from IMU and Vista ppl.
Sometimes being alone to retrospect and comtemplate the future, it kinda let you slow down and make yourself Thazin again. the Thazin i know. in all this chase to please others, ive forgotten myself. I do not know if i have changed, but i know the person who i thought i was like being the 'good' person in life, isnt exactly true. i mean, i think people actually judge you for your flaws. sometimes, these flaws for my manifest exponentially, that i dont even know it is my flaws.
I used to think that me being, myself and i was the best thing to do. to be truthful to my own innate character. But know, suddenly, i realised that being yourself can hurt other people like your peers, or other people might see interpret your character as something completely different from your initial idea.
Perfection is what i would opt for, right now, i aim to move on this 1.5 yr more.
I dont know who i should become.
kinda confused right now. All i know, im going to do things that i like and no one is going to tell me that i shouldnt or not.
im going to be me and my own ideologies.
and one day, a good doctor.
the beauty exposed ;
