Sunday, December 10, 2006
this is a story of a girl finding her way in life.
it all began on the first night of the full moon. She closed her eyes and asked to the goddess and earth if she was choosing the right path. Many times she had tried to do what other people did. Many times she lost her soul. And many times she cried at night wondering whatever happened to her.
that night, she comtemplated her errors. To her, everyone was selfish, arrogant, evil and hypocritical. They all looked like angels trying to help her but actually they were stabbing her and hoping for her to bleed out and die. She was in this battle all alone. Day by day, her armour is being torn apart by the slow truths that she digs out along the way. She is losing her mind, soul and heart.
Seeking help to the moon goddess, Serena. She bared herself in hope of getting comfort and to be healed in the wounds she inflicted in her fight.
She knows Serena would not come forward to her. She knows she was losing. Yet she asked for help. Maybe all these was in her mind, she has been too lonely these past few years. Depression was her companion. Fear was always behind her. And the truth kept stabbing her.
"freedom" she asked.
"let me go" she begged.
"I will not let you go", the moon whispered in her mind, " you will stay and fight till you emerge a stronger women"
She was shocked. Was she hallucinating?
fight? how do i fight still? when im falling apart? give me a sign, a hint, anything!?
the goddess spoke no more.
she was not granted freedom, but she was instead granted strength to be strong again. She will not run away from the truth and she will not fall again. She will stand tall and be strong because she is all alone and she cannot afford to crack. She will be a warrior.
she closed her eyes alone.
"alone i will be, but strong i shall become"
she smiled and walked back into her life.
the beauty exposed ;
